This past week R and I had the chance to see “La La Land” after some pleading on my part, and I have to say I have mixed feelings. Walking into the movie I had very high hopes because I love musicals and Ryan Gosling so I figured this would be a homerun for me. I was also told that the opening scene was worth the price of admission so right off the bat I was excited. I will say that if you have not seen the movie and do not want to be spoiled stop reading now. *YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED*
I am sad to say that I didn’t enjoy the beginning as much as I had hoped. It’s funny because now I do find myself listening to the soundtrack and enjoying it, but visually it’s odd and I didn’t enjoy watching it. I expected something completely different than they delivered so it was tough to adjust my expectations in the beginning. Once Ryan Gosling & Emma Stone were on screen it got better, but I also didn’t enjoy the “Someone in the Crowd” number leading up to the house party. It’s sort of all over the place and I’m not entirely sure what it accomplishes for the film. Thinking back on it now, I guess it’s a love song for LA and that could be the exact reason that I didn’t enjoy it because I’m not a fan of LA. Listening to the music is much more pleasurable than watching it (after just one viewing) so maybe you should listen to the soundtrack on Spotify to get a feel for the tune first. * shrug*
What I did love was everything in the middle of the movie. I loved “A Lovely Night” and I really loved “Planetarium”. I teared up watching them dance and sway and completely take my breath away. At certain parts of this film, I was reminded of “Singin’ in the Rain” and how sweeping some of those dances were. La La Land also has sweeping dances and moment were you forget where you are and just experience joy and whimsy.
There is an article on Slate that compares “La La Land” to not only “Singin’ in the Rain” but also other movie musicals and I recommend reading it here.
Another highlight of the film is the chemistry between these two. Not because they are Ryan Gosling and Emma Stone, but because I felt they fully embodied Sebastian and Mia and who those characters are. Seeing Sebastian (Gosling) be so passionate about jazz and the music he plays is inspiring and attractive. Watching Mia (Stone) love movies and love her craft is encouraging and enchanting. Their individual passions, when brought together, make them a perfect on-screen couple to root for because they root for one another. I loved watching them support each other and become fascinated with the other’s passions as the movie progressed. I loved watching their relationship blossom.
What I did not expect were the strong emotions this film would evoke within me. Simply put, this film broke my heart. I was sobbing through Mia’s audition when she talked about her aunt living abroad which leads into the song “Audition”…
You see, throughout the film we watch her audition for various roles and in each she is interrupted and not given the chance to show her full potential as an actor. During this audition, however, she is sought after by the casting director and is given open range to show them who she is and what she’s capable of doing. And this is the first time we see her potential as part of the audience too. It’s heartbreaking listening to her sing ” Audition (The Fools Who Dream)” because there is a stark contrast between what she is singing and how she feels at this point in the film. Before this scene she decided to give up on acting and yet when this opportunity arose, she chose to sing this song about dreaming and how the world needs dreamers. I can only imagine how difficult it would be for Mia to sing the song because the world that she says needs dreamers has turned her away and stomped on her dreams. And yet here she is.
As she was singing, I found myself reflecting on my own perspective of dreamers and that’s where my emotions were exposed and unleashed. I long to be a dreamer and yet I feel tied down by my realistic mentality. In my opinion, it is a luxury to live a life of dreaming and doing exactly what you want; yet I want so badly to be part of the lucky ones who get to do it everyday.
The movie continued to break my heart when we finally reach the “Epilogue”. We see Mia and Sebastian 5 years in the future and we see how those five years treated each of them separately until one night when Mia walks into a bar only to find Sebastian. And this is where I cried for the second time. Seeing what could have been felt like a cruel thing to show the audience who had been on this journey with them. At this point we already knew it wasn’t a fairytale ending…but to show the possible fairytale and then have it taken away almost as quickly as it came was difficult to watch. It felt like a huge tease to the audience. I realize the actual intent was to show the mind of our characters and what they pictured after running into one another after so long. But man did it hurt to watch.
I felt as though they were saying something deeper about dreams vs. love. As if they are saying you can’t have both love and the dream job/role and I didn’t like that. Now after I’ve had time to reflect, I see that it’s a reality shock rather than a tease of what could have been. It is often how things go:You break up. You don’t get the part. You own your own jazz bar.You get the role of a lifetime. You marry someone else. And life goes on.
Ultimately, I enjoyed the film and I am enjoying listening to the music at work. I’m impressed with Gosling’s talent (learning piano for the role) and with the ability of the director, cast, and crew to tell a modern tale in an old format. I’ll definitely be watching this again to see how I feel after another viewing.
Here’s to the hearts that break. Here’s to the mess we make.
xoxo
E