Hello to any and all (or none) who are reading these words. I am sorry for my lack of writing. I’m mainly sorry because writing is such a joy of mine, and over the past 10 months I have not been able to write. I’ve started a few posts but haven’t been satisfied with the product or haven’t been motivated enough to even complete the thought/post.
I’ve heard that the first year of marriage can be one of the more difficult ones, and I’m here to say that I agree! But for different reasons than I anticipated. I say that only because life has thrown R and myself some pretty nasty curve balls since we’ve been married and some we have dodged and others have hit us right in the gut. I won’t go into details, but these curve balls have been the focus of our life for months and I feel we have lost ourselves in them. I personally have replaced what I felt I’ve been missing with social media, TV shows, games on my phone (which is a serious red flag for me because I’m not even a “gamer”) and at the end of the day…I find myself discouraged and depressed with where I see myself. I’m not happy and I need to take some actions to take care of myself physically and mentally. I’ve written before about my comparison issues and these issues of comparison are making everything feel harder.
So, I am deciding to put my Facebook offline and give myself some time without it. This isn’t simply a “fast from Facebook” but rather a removal of it from my life entirely until I decide to return, if I ever decide to. Now I say that with a heavy heart because I already know there are things that I’ll miss. Events I won’t see pictures of, invites I may not receive, birthdays I won’t get to share. But this is important to me to at least try.
Everyday Erika 